O.M.G.

I can't eat.

I can't breathe.

I can't think.

I can't stand up straight.



When God reveals a bit of his plan for your life, it is so all consuming that you literally do not know what to do with yourself. At least that's how I feel.

I've been feeling God nudge me for a while, saying it's time to move on, which I am OK with, I just didn't know what to move on to.

I still sort of don't know... but I got a glimpse of what it looks like.

Just a glimpse, and I can barely breathe.

Barely breathe because I know it's not my will... it's His.

It's like this combination of being terrified and excited, and wanting so badly to follow Him, yet be sad to leave what is behind, and the whole idea of the unknown, yet the comfort in knowing that He knows...

it is... intense... to say the least.

Don't worry... I'm going to eat. I'm going to breathe. I may sit down, but I'm going to think this through.

I'm going to pray, and I'm going to ask you to pray with me, pray for me.

I'm terrified. Terrified because I realize I want to drop everything and follow Him... terrified because that may not look the way I want it to. Terrified because it's so unknown...

I'm terrified... and I love it! I love every bit of it... because I feel alive! I feel so alive!


BLAH!!!!!!!!

How to even end this, I don't even know. I just had to mark this date... the day that God has begun the process.



Someone once told me that God has something really big planned for me, and it changed my life... and my perspective on God as an active pursuer and not just an avid watcher.

And while I still may not know what exactly God has for me, I know that the process has begun!

And DAMN... it is exciting!


OH, My God is amazing!